Speaking Light

John 8:45 "So when I tell the truth, you just naturally don't believe me!" 

Why? Jesus explains earlier that we are born not understanding Truth. We are born into the enemy camp. Now, the enemy has convinced most of the modern world that there aren't two camps. We're not in a battle, there's nothing major or significant going on. Truth is, there is no middle ground or Switzerland, each of us is fighting for God or fighting for Satan, light versus dark, whether you are aware of it or not. As such, each army has it's own "language", a way of communicating. Every modern, earthly army does the same, they have buzz words, acronyms, things that "outsiders" don't really understand. Jesus says "Anyone who belongs to God listens gladly to the words of God. But you don't listen because you don't belong to God." (John 8:47) If you're not part of the club the language doesn't make a whole lot of sense and you tune it out. It's natural.

What this means then is that the Holy Spirit must be doing some kind of "pre-work" or introduction or something because we're all born into Satan's military and some of us end up deserting to God's side. At some point you and I start to understand the other side such that we "get it" and choose.

There's a few scriptures that talk about the Words of God being foolishness to men and I didn't really get that until this morning. I tend to equate "foolishness" with "stupid" and certainly it's true that sometimes God's way of doing thing may seem "stupid" to those that don't belong to Him. But I hadn't realized that some of it just doesn't make any sense because it's so foreign.

The enemy has done this brilliant job of removing the dichotomy in the world between good and evil. I mean people write entire books and would argue for years that there is no "right" and "wrong" and good and bad. I mean we're all just cells and matter. There's nothing spiritual going on. And if that's what you know then whatever would motivate you to explore anything else?

And what if I'm not helping? What if the way I speak, the way I live is similar enough to Satan's camp that I don't appear out of place? At the same time if I speak so foreign and I'm so out of place would anyone really be interested in being near enough to me to explore the difference? And how do you speak truth in such a way that some people "get it" because Jesus himself says you're not going to get it because you don't belong to him? I can see why people throw up their hands in frustration with the scriptures. Thank goodness these versus aren't the only ones about the journey from the enemy's ranks to God's ranks.

It does not rest on me. I mean if human Abbie is all that God is relying on to bring people from one camp to the other then things are not going to go very well. There's more. There's all these other versus about God chasing us, and coming after people, and knocking on their hearts and that's His spirit. His spirit is working, giving people the translation, exposing them to humans that, at least for a few moments, have hit the right balance in speaking light that is understandable.

I want to speak understandable light. I want to bring his truth into the enemy's camp. I don't want to blend in but I don't want to be the laughingstock either. There's scripture about people who speak or live carrying his truth being a sweet aroma. I want to draw a trail of new recruits back to God's ranks. But I'm going to relax about the whole thing. The Holy Spirit goes before me. He's preparing the way so at the moments I do give off enough light, when I smell sweet, that those who He's made ready will follow.