Growth

Something must be very different about me. The things that happened this week years ago would have sent my emotions all over the place, and it would have been so hard to recover, but I'm really doing good. It's only when life gets hard that you see so clearly how much God has matured you, and how much you still need to grow. I mean I had emotions for sure this week. I cried, I was angry, I felt bewildered and yes it effected my concentration and engagement in my job but none of it derailed me. I needed time to process but my house is still clean in the midst of it. I got work done. I attended to some emergent needs of others. I was even able to minister to a teenager. It seems miraculous. I've learned to manage rough spots without loosing it. I couldn't tell you how it came about. I'm sure someone could analyze and come up with a bunch of factors. But the factor I know for sure is that I've been walking with God. Not perfectly for sure. I know I could have read more of the Word. I could be more plugged into relationships with others. But He is fully in charge and he's done a work in me and it is good.