Confusion

I don't know what to say but I feel so very much the need to write. I've been devouring the Word the last few days but it brings me little comfort. I don't know what I'm looking for. Relief maybe, so much emotion for unknown reasons. I mean the tears come so easily for no reason at all. There's this weight of responsibility that I can't seem to get away from. Lord take every task, point out the first things to do and relieve me from this false idea that success or failure rests on me. It is a lie, you carry the world, I need to obey, I need to move slowly and intentionally. But I keep taking it all on me. So disasterous. I was going to say not helpful but that would be a terrible understatement. Let it go Abbie stop controlling, stop being afraid. When did the agreement with fear happen? Long, long ago, you were little and he offered to always warn you as long as you would let him be in charge.

GOD! Really !!! Free me I beg you from that agreement made as a child. Lord in the power of your blood I ask you to break that agreement with Fear. He cannot be in control. Only you, only you can be in charge of me. I break the agreement in the name of Jesus by his shed blood. You have no more power over me or my thoughts, will, emotions, actions, you have no influence over me. I bind with you all replacements, backups, minions or related spirits that have come to destroy. I bind you and cast you at the feet of Jesus to be judged and dealt with. You have no power over me any more.

God I thank you that you work outside of time and space and can redeem foolish childhood agreements. Thank you that you can remove the power of the enemy no matter when he moved in and when he began his influence. Thank you that you desire freedom for me and in every area of my life. Thank you for loving me so much that you showed me this time and the agreement that was made. Thank you for sweeping through my heart and mind and will and spirit and removing any graces of fear. Lord fill the places he has left with secure trust in you with profound belief in your goodness. Thank you for answering my prayer that I would trust you more. Please fill me afresh with your holy spirit and sweep away the remnants of fear. Change any beliefs that persits that he has twisted and make me believe all the is true and right and good.