Frequency

Numbers 28 gives a detailed description of the sacrifices that the Israelites were to offer to God everyday. There's a ton of them, everyday. And the Holy Spirit stopped me as I was reading and I thought, hmm, do I make a sacrifice even once a day? Really, what do I lay down for God each day? So as the new year begins I feel the need to get serious about sacrifice. I mean God isn't a candy machine but I have to believe that if I give more to Him then my life will change for the better.

Don't mistake me for being discontent. My life right now is amazing. I am the mother to a teenage boy who fills my life with laughter and joy. I have the job of my dreams decades before I even considered it might happen. I have a cozy apartment and want for nothing. Life is so good but there are dreams yet to be fulfilled and I wonder how my obedience and sacrifice tie into that fulfillment.

God has knit me together to desire good things to hope for big accomplishments and I think that being really obedient to him is the only way those things are going to come to pass. And really, setting aside hopes for big stuff, a life of obedience in daily things is only going to help me serve others more, be more levelheaded and remain in joy.

But I continue to battle with myself to do the daily sacrifice, to get up a little earlier, to slow down and pray before interactions with others, to not eat things that my body doesn't need. I am so human and he knows that, perhaps part of the daily sacrifices at the temple was that people living nearby wouldn't be able to ignore the smoke and the smell and that it would intrude into their daily lives as an external prompt. I need more external prompts. I want the frequency of my sacrifice to Him to increase and I need Him to show me how to get that ball rolling. So I will sit and listen and do whatever he tells me to increase the frequency of my personal sacrifice.